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24 Reasons You’re Dreaming About Your Ex / 24 Razones Por Las Que Sueñas Con Tú Ex

  1. Because he is an espectro that only appears to you in dreams.
  2. Porque lo echas de menos.
  3. Because you’re back in the place you first met, en la cabaña cerca de Bacalar.
  4. Porque aquí afuera, lejos de la ciudad, the night sky es brillante y la tranquilidad blankets you.
  5. Because you skipped your nightly glass of vino and kept your Xanax in its bottle. You know la diferencia entre sedación y sueño. You must truly sleep if you are going to see him.
  6. Porque te enseñó a shapeshift; cómo estirar los brazos y convertirlos en alas so you could fly like a heron above the Lake of Seven Colors. Or how to dive headfirst into the lake, so that by the time you landed your feet were aletas and tu piel was scales.
  7. Because you feel regret. Lo que no significa que tomaste la decisión equivocada.
  8. Porque preguntaste the wrong question. Querías saber lo que tenías que hacer para hacerlo tuyo para siempre. Dijo que necesitabas vivir en el reino de los sueños eternamente. And you couldn’t. The waking world tiene cáncer y cambio climático, pero también tiene brunch con amigos y museos del arte.
  9. Because you are ready to ask the right question, if only he will appear again.
  10. Porque estar cerca de él es una full body experience que utiliza sentidos a los que no puedes acceder mientras estás despierto. Su mundo está lleno de información y desinformación, pero contiene too little mysticism. You shouldn’t have to give this all up just because you broke up.
  11. Because you want to do it all over again, but not exactly in the same way.
  12. Porque cuando viene a ti, su energía es singular. Una figura de luz azul y near infinite beauty que te hace brillar, comenzando desde el interior. His light would shift the closer he got to you, which is how you knew you had an effect on him, too.
  13. Because there is only one way to call him. Your dreamself must appear in the meadow near the lake. You must feel the cold, hard dirt and newly sprouted grass under your transparent feet. Debes enviar tu energía hacia abajo y alrededor para que las amapolas broten y florezcan en la oscuridad.
  14. Because his absence is a presence.
  15. Because you can’t stay in your home world full-time either. Tu vida real no solo involucra brunch y arte. Hay responsabilidades and drudgery, también.
  16. Because you’ve tried meeting new men and none of them are suficiente.
  17. Porque cuando se te aparece, he’s more of a ghost than ever. Pensaste que estaba más allá del tiempo, it never occurred to you he might be mortal as well.
  18. Because he says he has to leave and there’s no way to return from where he’s going. You can’t go with him, he won’t allow it. And he can’t ever visit you, no está permitido.
  19. Porque él está seguro de que las cosas sucedieron de la manera en que debían de hacerlo. Puede volver a verlo en sueños, pero será una proyección, which is to say, his essence combined with your imagination.
  20. Because he feels regret. There are lots of ways to die and none of them are easy. He never should have asked you to leave your world.
  21. Porque tiene una última solicitud.
  22. Because he wants to make sure you’re able to extract meaningful, nourishing energy from your surroundings. His eyes glow and yours do, too. His fingertips turn warm when they touch your luz. You give your glow freely, but he only takes a sip. It’s greed that turns vampirism into a sin.
  23. Porque adiós es un beso que dura tres días.
  24. Because the right question is not how to fall asleep. Or how to find and keep pleasure. The right question is when to wake up. How to know when it’s time. Y qué hacer cuando sepas.

 

Dominica Phetteplace

Dominica Phetteplace

Dominica Phetteplace writes fiction and poetry. Her work has appeared in Zyzzyva, Asimov’s Science Fiction, Analog, The Magazine of Fantasy and Science Fiction, Clarkesworld, Lightspeed, Copper Nickel, Ecotone, Wigleaf, The Year’s Best Science Fiction and Fantasy, and Best Microfiction 2019. Her honors include two Pushcart Prizes, a Rona Jaffe Award, a Barbara Deming Award and fellowships from I-Park, Marble House Project, Djerassi, Tin House, and MacDowell. She is a graduate of UC Berkeley and the Clarion West Writers Workshop.